It is time for my montly day rating experiment review post!  This month consisted of 6 B’s, 12 N’s and 12 G’s. However, this month they did not make sense to me at all! In the first week I got ill once again and had a difficult family situation. I did not mark any of these days with B. On tuesday the 21nd, another disaster struck with something I was working on. I even have this day marked with a G.

The last one does make some sense to me. I think I’m over a certain point with the job that I’m easily countering every setback. I wasn’t even surprised something bad happened. The setback was short and I feel very confident in the way that I’ve handled things. Perhaps that is the difference. I remain without explanation for the first week of april.

Here I am again, with the results of March as the cards have generally played out already. In the first week I marked the 6th and the 7th as “B”, I surely felt that one.  I actually started off the day great. I regained some energy and was generally feeling good about myself. Feelings that have been playing in the background for quite some time regarding my job came to the surface. At a certain point your patience with a topic is just gone, but you’re still obligated to listen calmly to people, to try and understand them and discuss the matter. If at this point, this was the only thing that was required of me I’m pretty sure any discussions wouldn’t have had any impact. Unfortunately I have been doing way too many other things to get an end result right that claimed my patience already. All the energy was just sucked out of me at that moment. The more discussions I had on friday the more annoyed and tired that I got.

The following saturday I was plagued by “Flashbacks“. I suddenly see random moments in the past where people have let me down, were rude to me, ignored me, etc. I had a hard time stopping it, but it finally disappeared when I wrote about those flashbacks on my blog. It is said there too, it’s related to my heavily occupied 8th house. I find the article of Carmen Turner-Schott that I found on the internet extremely valuable. It’s one of the best words on this topic I’ve seen written down.

Looking at this astrologically, “B” days always have something to do with my work. There almost never is something with my family or friends. Sometimes it sets you to wonder when that element of work is removed, would the impact of “B” still be the same? I actually seem to believe that it is not the same. Not out of convenience, but because when “B” days fall on saturdays or sundays, I either notice nothing or the energy drainage isn’t as much. Only a slight feeling of boredom or irritation on not finding focus on what you’re doing remains. The difference is of course, that you’re not expected to perform that day.

On the 24th and 25th of March I had the first days marked as “B”, extending towards the end of that week. Tr. Mars opposition Sun does it again! I’ve read in my transit book that it implies things to come back that happened during the last square and that started at the last opposition. In retrospect and searching my inbox and archives I found out what these issues were. Just about the only thing I’ve ever truly entrusted someone with came back to haunt me. Not a good learning experience, because it’s generally not the thing you’d like to learn in a teamwork environment. The points in time were mid July (opposition) and end of November (square).

In January, I had explained some doubts I had about how I filled out the sheet for February. It seemed a little too positive. Despite the problems I can look back at it now and tell you that compared to previous months it was indeed more easy for me. The only day marked as “B” I had a horrible nightmare, which I wrote about on my normal blog.  Pretty overwhelming. I actually use my regular blog to look back on the previous month because even though I remember what happened I have trouble remembering the day.

For March it isn’t looking as good as February. The “B”s are a little more distributed than in previous months where there were definite clusters. The only week that doesn’t have a “B” somewhere is week 3.