Scared for my life

September 25th I discovered a lump in my left breast. The following Tuesday I went to see my doctor, who said it was probably a cyst, but to be sure I should go to the hospital to get pictures taken. Normally in these cases, I don’t use astrology to tell me anything. I would only be in more agony than I already would be. I did draw a horary, but closed it after I saw the Moon’s Nodes were on the axis. I did not interpret it any further and closed the program. Despite that, as an astrologer stuff starts to connect in your mind anyways. Stuff you don’t need astrology programs for, but know by heart.

Transit Saturn is approaching conjunction with my Natal moon and is now conjunct the Natal ruler of the house of my health: Mercury. Next to that Transit Pluto is squaring my Moon. Both of these are transits that have to do with “female things and concerns” (Moon). Additionally, transit Mars comes to the eclipse point of 22nd of July (29 degrees Cancer) soon. As you may or may not know, astrological prognoses works on different levels:

1. Physical.
2. Emotional.
3. Intellectual.
4. Spiritual.

I’m never sure how spiritual differs from the intellectual side, but, whenever looking at a chart the part where the astrologer has to guess is the level at which transits and progressions are going to play out [field of play or stage]. At this time I’m not sure if I have the worst possible: breast cancer or that it’s just a benign growth. Just like a peek at the horary could not tell me if it’s my own fear I was reading, or the state of my body. I am absolutely scared to death, I’ve never been this afraid in my entire life. In this case astrology does not help at all, and it bothers me that I’m able to see this.

As the answer will be revealed, more about this topic. For now, I’m halting all astrology activities until I know the answer.

I visited the hospital october 1st. They did an echo of my left breast, which revealed that it indeed was a cyste. The doctor also told me I have multiple smaller cystes in my breast and that the one I discovered just came up to the surface. As an addition to this post, I will now show the horary I saved which I was too afraid to interpret on my own behalf.

“Do I have breast cancer?”

As you can see the Moon’s Nodes are very close to the axis Ascendant/ Descendant. The first house deals partly with health as well but most of all: they indicate how serious the question is. “Fate, life or death”. Any planet or cusp residing on the nodal degree (the same degree as the Moon’s nodes) will get that same critical connotation. It is to no surprise the Moon is in this same degree, which deals with feminine topics. My own significator (Saturn) is in the nodal degree as well. The square aspect between Saturn and Moon can also indicate the nature of the concern. Saturn in medical astrology is always involved with all things “old age, hardening’s, lumps, arthritis”. I’m not sure if Saturn rules cancer (as in the disease), but I would guess so since it rules the warning signs of cancer. Please follow this link to read about another horary where Saturn and this type of a health problem is discussed.

In addition we see that the Moon is aspected by Saturn and Mercury by a separating square and that the Moon is “Void of course”. A void of course Moon often occurs in charts when the person who asks the question will soon stop worrying about it. In the case of sickness or questions about sickness it means a quick healing period or simply “nothing to worry about” (Hamaker, p114). Mars is fairly well aspected, though again the Arabic parts indicate the enormous fear. The significator for my health (Mercury) is retrograde. It only became clear what the meaning of this was after I consulted my horary book by Hamaker: “Missing information” (p.85).

Somehow I wished I had the guts to have taken up a book earlier, but in all due honesty I practise astrology with a healthy dose of scepticism and I would never be influenced to not see a doctor because of astrology. I recommend everyone else to do the same. Though I believe my scepticism let’s me see astrology’s boundaries more clearly, these are topics where astrology does not offer some kind of consolation and would only end up in too much preoccupation when you should not be over stressing yourself.