Maybeh, I would just like to see an end to certain stuff happening in my life right now. I know I did do everything I can, but apparently that’s not enough. It’s that way with a lot of things really. I’m not going to go back to where I was 4 years ago: I am simply not going to go back into sobbing and praying that one day I will wake up and can hardly spell my own name. I know what my problem is after 28 years: I’m just too goddamn smart. lol. Stinky stinky, arrogant poo: all the while suffering from the consequences and never wanting to be able to put 2 and 2 together on anything if that meant I would be missing out on fun, if that meant I would be putting myself in a very compromising position all my life. I can’t change who I am. I am an enormously curious, creative, smart entity categorized as female and admitted I’m not average in my interests. And I know I will always, for the rest of my life, have to deal with the consequences that come with that whether I like it or not.

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